I am a 45-year-old woman. I have two teenage children and was married for 16 years but I ended it five years ago when I met 'Elizabeth'. Elizabeth and I started dating when I was still in my marriage, and when I split with my husband she and I got our own house and moved in with the kids.
My mother didn't take the news very well and fought with me every day until it came to the point where I couldn't take it any more.
We didn't talk for a year and it was the hardest thing I ever had to do, but my mother is very controlling and it was the only thing I could do to stop her. We started speaking again at the beginning of this year and it was lovely but I felt she was always having an input in things and before long we fought again. Elizabeth and I are getting married in two years and I am not sure if my mother is even happy for me as she has never congratulated me.
She never asks about me and Elizabeth, and I was told by a family member that my mother said she cannot look on us as partners but just friends, and that hurts me.
Elizabeth often says she would love to have children together and in a way I would too, but my age puts me off and the thought of starting again scares me. But there is another part of me wanting another child because I know Elizabeth would make a good mother.
I don't know if I am just thinking how my mother would react as there is not a day goes by that I don't think about what my mother would say or think.
This even happens if my kids say or want to do something, and straight away I think about what my mother is going to say.
I know I shouldn't but I always do, and I know this is my problem with having more children – what would my mother think and say.